I'm trying to make this year special for Matt because I know he is not in a good place.
Yesterday was a rough day for both of us, for no particular reason. It rained for three days straight, and I was listening to a lot of Emo. What really hit me though was Facebook showing me a particular "On this Day" picture of the two of us in the fall of 2012. Thank you Facebook for reminding me how thin and wrinkle free my body was just a short three years ago. The past three years have taken a toll on me mentally and physically.


This year, my brother will travel with his wife and daughter, to Virginia Beach. We are all looking forward to it, but I also understand that getting excited to see my brother is a reminder to Matt that he doesn't get to see his.
I guess adding on some weight and wrinkles isn't so bad when you consider the things we have been through as a couple in the past three years.

11 months of unemployment
10 months of deployment
5 different jobs
3 dogs in our home
2 sick brothers
1 miscarriage
and a partridge in a pear tree.
May peace and joy find you this holiday season. Love the ones you are with, and send warm fuzzies to those that are far away. Namaste people.